I crave stimulation. I am seeing Father everywhere in this beautiful landscape but I need to focus more. I feel the desire to read more than ever and it is somewhat overwhelming. Perhaps I am a little board because I have no job as of yet and we are still waiting for the house to close and get our money - exciting yes!
I had the opportunity to observe the old church that we came from. I no longer care to beat them into submission. I do, however, find it sad that for the most part, they and many others see learning about my Father as a mood killer. Everyone enters a room and immediately begin to converse with each other about their lives and struggles until the teacher speaks and the exuberant room falls to silence. They prepare to "learn". God just got boring - sad. To sit at peter piper pizza and discuss openly to Jeremy about what our Father has shown me and to do it with joy - that is living. To hear the laughter from my friends and see the bond that they share fills my heart. I love you guys dearly. Thank you so much for letting me be a part of your life and learning The Way. We will see each other often I am confident of this. What was learned has formed a bond like no other.
Exposing Myself on a Regular Basis
“All this is flashy rhetoric about loving you. I never had a selfless thought since I was born. I am mercenary and self-seeking through and through: I want God, you, all friends, merely to serve my turn. Peace, re-assurance, pleasure, are the goals I seek, I cannot crawl one inch outside my proper skin: I talk of love -a scholar's parrot may talk Greek- But, self-imprisoned, always end where I begin." - C S Lewis