Saturday, June 05, 2004

For Memorial Day, we all went to Flagstaff, AZ for a 4 day sabbatical. I took three naps, made two bow and arrows for my boys and sat back and thought about life. To say the least, we needed this badly. I’ve been working 6 days a week for over 4 years and only getting 3 day weekends to travel and visit family who usually require more of our time. We as a family have yet to take a vacation by ourselves. This is mostly our fault because we love people.
The thoughts that I contemplated: I have been working 6 days a week and receiving the almost the same pay for almost 5 years now. During this time, I have had two additional kids, started paying for my health insurance and life insurance, started paying for all my gas, and no longer have a company vehicle (I’m sure I’m missing some items here but use your imagination wont you). Somehow we are still here. I don’t get it. The sick thing was, while I was in Flagstaff, I saw 10 or more cabins for sale for $85k each. I swear I could sell my “mansion” and live in the woods, make wooden things, sell them at yard sales and probably make more money than I am right now – AND spend my life with my KIDS!!! (on a tangent, while I was writing this, a kid came in my store and puked – weeeee) My dream would be to spend most of my time teaching my kids about the Father and this world. From exploring the tiniest ladybug to the largest cave, from serving the family around you to watching the father work. I guess it is more or a fantasy than a dream, ro maybe its just fool’s hope.
I hear my boys singing “open the eyes of my heart Lord” all the while not comprehending its meaning. I can’t help but think that their “lack” of understanding in their eyes is more that why would you need to sing this song when He is blatantly in front of you. I am starting to think that the spiritual things of this world are often best viewed through the eyes of a child. They never use the smoke and mirrors of this world to observe things in the spiritual world.
And another thing….
I changed the quote on top. I think that quote best fits my views and philosophy. I am starting to grasp the reality that the Father wants the same relationship with us as He had with Jesus on the earth. Yes I know that Jesus is God and I am not nor will I ever be. I’m referring to the way Jesus and the Father interacted. Jesus did what he saw the Father do. It was and is pure love. I am not even close to getting this perfected and I don’t think I’ll ever get to that point, but I know beyond all reason that I am loved and desired. I also know that God doesn’t need us at all, he desires us with a passion that knows no end.
And another - another thing….
Read Wayne’s blog on settlers and pilgrims – WOW! I don’t know about the whole clergyman and bishop thing, but the rest is great. Bishop and Clergyman = man’s attempt to establish a secular hierarchy into a kingdom that knows only one master and teacher.

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