I think it is safe to say that I suck at poems. This one represents my current state of thoughts. I am learning to let God love me like he has always wanted to. And by the way, I suck at that too.
You’ve been here my whole life
Watching every thing that I do
There have been days that
I’ve completely turned against you
I seem to find myself empty
You see my pain with open arms
I’ve been loved through all this
Always keeping me away from harm
I run to you with a limp
You see me as a work of art
I am worthless before you
You hold me dear to your heart
I have seen you my whole life
Even when I didn’t want to
There has been so much sorrow
You’ve held me to see it through
I am now seeing your love
I was timid, wet and cold
Now I feel your warmth
It is purer than gold
True, you are my God my King
But now I see you without fear
I see your love, infatuation and resolve
Still you wipe away my every tear
For years I have struggled for your favor
I can see that it was all in vain
I beat myself up reading and prayin’
You watched as I caused myself pain
There is nothing that I can do
But be loved by you.
Exposing Myself on a Regular Basis
“All this is flashy rhetoric about loving you. I never had a selfless thought since I was born. I am mercenary and self-seeking through and through: I want God, you, all friends, merely to serve my turn. Peace, re-assurance, pleasure, are the goals I seek, I cannot crawl one inch outside my proper skin: I talk of love -a scholar's parrot may talk Greek- But, self-imprisoned, always end where I begin." - C S Lewis