Prayer: a little dose of honesty.
I have been doing this whole Christian thing since I was in third grade. It has been a great journey so far and lately it has been a blast. For the past three years I have been exploring God. I have been trying to understand him and see him without the confines of the American church structure. I have seen more in three years than I have in my whole life but I think that I am only at the start of my journey.
What irks me is that though I may seek him, I can’t seem to find the time to just talk to him in prayer. I do pray but it is always seems short and sometimes without substance. I wonder if constantly thinking about Him and His works is the same as praying? I realize that the bible is a tool and that there are other things out there that scream His presence. I wonder in the same way: if praying is a form of communication, are there more forms out there? Am I utilizing another form of prayer?
Exposing Myself on a Regular Basis
“All this is flashy rhetoric about loving you. I never had a selfless thought since I was born. I am mercenary and self-seeking through and through: I want God, you, all friends, merely to serve my turn. Peace, re-assurance, pleasure, are the goals I seek, I cannot crawl one inch outside my proper skin: I talk of love -a scholar's parrot may talk Greek- But, self-imprisoned, always end where I begin." - C S Lewis